Oh, ho, ho it's magic, you know...

Never believe it's not so...

I am aware that I sound like I am on a course of really strong anti-depressants, or that I’ve taken to spiking my orange juice. But I can’t help wanting to share all the fun we are having on our walks to school. Today we had a whole new appreciation for our route. It rained, poured, all night and the creeks and streams that are on every block were running strong. Not only was there a treasure to see, we enjoyed the energizing, percolating sound as well.

As I was thinking about how totally cool it is that every time I head home from dropping the kids off, I notice something interesting…first it was fallen walnuts…the likes I had never seen before. In their natural state, right off the tree, they look like small tennis balls in the summer and like little piles of something you don’t want to step in during the fall. If you peel the fruit casing off…there inside is the familiar looking walnut shell…break it down further and you find the nut meat we are used to seeing in bags at the market for baking.

This morning it was the sudden, slightest little cracking sound that caught my attention. I look over and there within 10 feet is a massive buck with a full grown set of antlers. Only in our neighborhood do you catch sight of one of these guys, because there is no hunting. A buck has to make it through 5 or 6 years to get a rack like that. He was beautiful and slightly alarmed…he flicked his white tail straight up—a distress signal…so I did what any normal Californian high on coffee and fresh air would do…I blew him a kiss and took off.

Wherever You Go...

There You Are!



After only 1/3 of my sabbatical, I dug myself right back into the patterns most familiar to me. What started off as a year to think, write and spend quality time with my family is slowly turning into regular life.

How did I end up in charge of t-shirt design & sales for the PTA? Why am I the only in-class volunteer for the kindergarten class (I spent my morning making cut-out turkeys!)? I was out two evenings this week already—book club Monday and a publishing talk last night--and tonight I am supposed to go to a screening of the movie “Motherhood” followed by a Q&A with the director afterwards. It all sounds fabulous, right? Except I am an “accept” addict!

I was just about to dash off to a “Nutritional Sense and Nonsense” lecture this morning--in between elementary school volunteering and a run I had planned, when I caught myself in an old habit—figuring out how I was going pack more into my day—I wanted to hit the grocery store before picking up the boys and still needed to go to Staples for a bunch of supplies. I started triaging my to-do list...

I realize part of this year means I actually must learn to say no! Give a smile, dig my fingernails into my palms and keep my mouth shut. When those invites pop into my in-box, just quietly, in the privacy of my own home, hit “decline” or tick the “unable to join you” box. While I am thankful to be included, how many open houses do I need to attend before I feel like the holiday cheer consumed all of my time? I certainly don’t need to stand around in an itchy sweater drinking for hours when I’d rather be in a ski jacket on a sled with my boys!

So, here I am, right where I want to be, writing at my computer. They won’t miss me at the lecture today. And, I’ll take the kids to the grocery store with me this afternoon—it’s good for them to understand the food doesn’t magically appear in the cupboards. Now that I'm in a calmer state of mind, I'll figure out how to make do with random supplies for my project. Now I can look forward to a long run without feeling cheated or overwhelmed.

All of the sudden I am back on track and who knows, I may actually accomplish everything I set out to do by leaving many things undone.

Verklempt

A very special girl in our lives had her Bat Mitzvah last weekend. In Judaism, a Bar Mitzvah is a boy, and a Bat Mitzvah is a girl, who has gone through Hebrew schooling and preparation, and has a Jewish coming-of-age ceremony. It marks the time when children assume their own responsibility for ritual and tradition. The momentous day involves the young man or woman being called to read the Torah at a Shabbat service and also giving a discussion of that week’s Torah portion.



Most Jews also enjoy rich cultural traditions before and after the ceremony, like having someone with good eye-sight open the safe and retrieve the family jewels before hopping on a plane, or special celebratory meals. We were treated to a festive weekend of Friday night welcome Shabbat dinner, Saturday Kiddish Luncheon, and really fun dinner and dance party Saturday night, ending with a bagel and lox brunch on Sunday. It wouldn’t have been complete without a little kevetching and Tums vs. Prilosec debate.



Little Sydney, who I held in my arms when she was a few weeks old is now a tall, beautiful, wicked-smart 12 year old. She has mastered Hebrew school with the same grace and style that she accomplishes everything she sets her mind to do.



We felt honored sharing this milestone with her. I loved seeing how proud her grandmothers and parents were. Sydney’s Torah lesson for us was about not being afraid to try trying something new.



And, so, at her fabulous party Saturday night where they had a rockin’ DJ, even though my boys had never danced at a party in front of a bunch of giggling tween girls before, they attempted all the new moves. I don’t think they sat out one song.



I thought a lot about sweet Sydney growing up so fast and I realized it won’t be that long before I am dancing away at my sons’ Bar Mitzvahs. With any luck, or prayers being answered, I won’t miss a step and my boys will still want me by their side shakin’ my groove thing.



Yeah, yeah.

Birthday Order

I see that I blogged about Firstborn’s Prince’s birthday party four days after we threw it. It has now been two-and-a-half weeks since we had Charming Baby’s big day.



As mothers, I think we sometimes get caught feverishly trying to do for one child what we did for the other or end up proclaiming things like, “Well, life isn’t exactly fair.” I have a friend who sent out gorgeous birth announcements for her first son, and then mocked up a fake one for her second, put it in his baby book, pretending she sent them out, and swore me to secrecy.

Experts say birth order affects our personality and so far, my first hand experience says that must be true. Charlie, my firstborn, always knows exactly what he wants and works me over until he gets it, usually in a very systematic and loving fashion. Sometimes it takes me weeks to figure out that I was hoodwinked.



It was tricky working with Sam to help him decide what he wanted for his party. Martha Stewart does not do Sponge Bob Square Pants, I refuse to have three themes going at once, and Sam kept changing his mind.

He also wasn’t sure about who to invite. I learned a long time ago to not force my kids to invite the whole class. It seems very inclusive and proper the first few times you do it and then, eventually, you realize, it’s your kid’s birthday, they only have a handful that they are going to remember, so why not make it their version of special?



We were able to celebrate everything Sam loves about being in Ithaca—the great outdoors. We had a “camping party.” While I couldn’t salt the yard with frogs, or fill the Koi pond with trout, I had visions of canoe races, camp games and Primitive Pursuits instruction by local guides, but Sam (how did he get to be so wise?) wanted to keep it simple—“just a tent and campfire, Mom.”


We told spooky stories and roasted marshmallows. It was really fun, minus the part where I accidentally made a 5-year-old cry with the dead-man-body-parts-passed-around-in-paper-bags game.


Thinking back, it occurs to me that Sam, my little confused baby, masterminded a plan to get chocolate, marshmallows AND birthday cake, all in one afternoon.

What next?

iTry, iLike, iScared

Last week's cover of The New Yorker haunts me.

I am trying out an iTouch before I upgrade to an iPhone. I got one free with the purchase of my MacBook Pro (brilliant marketing scheme to get university students hooked on apple). I have been holding off because the ATT cell coverage is only 2/3 as good as Verizon (I know because my husband has ATT and I have Verizon and I am always the one who can get a signal when he can't). I realized that even with only WiFi access to the internet, I have become an addict!

Having a notebook computer was bad enough, enabling me to ignore everyone at airports and dull meetings. But now I can lose myself in my own little world in even more places. The social norms vary all over the place--in Europe it's perfectly acceptable to check your mobile device while at lunch. In fact, almost everyone has one right next to their water glass. Here, we are still trying to figure out what's acceptable and what's rude.

I am setting some boundaries for myself. I want to be totally present in my day to day interactions. And please shoot me if I ever scroll down a screen while taking my kids trick-or-treating!!

Slave to Love

My younger son’s internal clock has NOT reset since the daylight savings time change. So, every morning at 5:30 I feel a warm little hand on mine and hear a soft whisper.

Sam: Mom?

Me (one eye open): Yes?

Sam: Will you play with me?

At first I tried to get him to go back to sleep with me. That doesn’t work. He lays there having a conversation with a pretend friend, chuckling to himself. It’s like being in bed with a drunk with a low I.Q.

Then, I started hauling myself out of bed so he wouldn’t wake up my older son who needs sleep or my husband who likes sleep.

After a week, we now have a routine. Sam waits patiently for me in the kitchen while I brew my coffee. I have trained him on the rules of engagement. No chitty chat until I’ve had my first sip. He sees me bring me the cup to my lips.

Sam: Are you ready?

Me: Sure, what’s on the docket?

Sam: Let’s make books.

He lords over me while I do all the work, instructing me to make this larger or that smaller. He seems as happy as a middle manager in a factory who’s ahead of schedule. I kind of like this game.

Sam: Can we play something else now?

Me: Sure. Cards?

Sam: No, can I tie you up? I want to practice my knots.

I make a mental note to delete “Man. Vs. Wild” shows.

Me: Okay, but let me refill my coffee first, and you must leave one hand and my mouth free.

Even though I am not a huge fan of some of the activities he comes up with, I really look forward to this pocket of time we have discovered. He will be sleeping in and moving on soon enough. Now if I can just get him to play the cooking prep game...

Character High

Running inspires my writing. Beyond the high I get from the adrenaline rush, I love to people watch and get material for characters.

Sundays are especially good for this on a college campus. As I finished panting my way up the south hill this morning, I tried to time what I thought was an oncoming heart attack in front of a pre-med student. Hint: They are not the ones wandering around in front of a fraternity house looking for their shoe.

I continued my search, hoping for someone with a huge backpack, glasses, preferably on their way to the library. I spotted a smartly dressed girl walking into the Johnson Business School building and thought she looked a lot like the investment bankers I know. Likewise, the guy cradling a notebook the size of the Manhattan White Pages reminded me of a man I would trust to defend me in a court of law. Isn’t it funny that the girl in the fashionable dress, obviously on her way to brunch with a preppy-looking boyfriend, is familiar, too, just like my friends who can be found at the tennis club on a sunny afternoon nursing their margaritas?

Turns out I was able to catch my breath, scoop up a few ideas, and head home, ready to rough up the heroine in the short story that is due tomorrow...